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1st Law Newsletter - March 10 2025
Welcome back to the 1st Law Newsletter.
I really don’t know what to write about most of the time. I just sit down and write.
Shadow work (a.k.a. self work/ reflection)
I have been trying to be reflective recently. Some questions I have been asking myself include:
What are my fears? (what trauma do I have?, what vices do I have/ have I had and why?)
What am I obsessed with? (what would i get a PhD in for fun?, what would I continue to do if there was risk of bodily harm or death?, what would I do everyday if I had 1 trillion dollars in my bank account?)
How do I perform? (reader vs listener?, how do I learn?, how do I work?, decision maker or advisor?)
What are my strengths? (what do i have an advantage in? what do i get complimented for? genetic potential? what problems have i solved (without being asked)? previous 'wins' of my life? )
What are my values? (what do i get emotional about? what do i hate?, what makes me cry? )
I have a GitHub document going so I can access this note form home and from work lol. Anytime I think of something to add I just jot it down quickly. What do I hope to gain from doing this? Just knowing myself better. I want to understand why I am the way I am, and what I should do with my time to feel the most fulfillment.
Random Thoughts
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Whats better for raising kids: having them grow up in a metropolis? Or having them grow up in a rural town where they can wander alone safely until sunset? I am a believer in public schools. What are ‘fail-safe’ childhood activities? (I’m thinking gymnastics and swimming). Honestly, randomness might have such a high impact on all of our lives that these things matter less than I think. For example, I wonder how much something as natural as our names have impacted our personalities and how we have lived our lives ( I bet a kid named Chad had a very different experience than a kid named Aristotle).
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What am I missing in my life? Like, will there ever a point where I am going to wake up and just be… content? Where I don’t long for anything else? Where I am not jealous of this persons car, or that house, or that job… Honestly, there might not be. If I can understand that wanting and overthinking and desire are natural aspects of human life, I can try to design my life such that my desires are good for me and for the world.
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I lack purpose. But that’s okay, I am searching.
Quote to go
“If we can forgive what’s been done to us… If we can forgive what we’ve done to others… If we can leave our stories behind. Our being victims and villains. Only then can we maybe rescue the world.”
“Without courage we cannot practice any other virtue with consistency. We can’t be kind, true, merciful, generous, or honest.”
Thanks for reading!
Lucas